Let me say first that I am thankful for my heritage in Churches of Christ. Having gone through a critical stage earlier in life, I aim for holding respectful critique in tension with deep gratitude for the innumerable gifts I've been given by my immediate family of faith. My personal experience of childhood and adolescence in Churches of Christ was overwhelmingly good, and I stand on the shoulders of so many faithful women and men.
I also acknowledge that my story is not universal; I know that others
have their own stories to tell - some beautiful, some not. My goal here is just to share my own story of
coming to discover Jesus' resurrection.
In my experience growing up in (weekly-Eucharist)
Churches of Christ in the 80's, it seemed like Easter was mostly about
Friday. The vast majority of my Easter Sunday memories are about baskets
of chocolate and new summery Sunday dresses. Though my home congregation
was not ultra-conservative in our family spectrum, I had heard (more than once)
“we don’t celebrate Easter Sunday because we celebrate Easter Every Sunday.”
But looking back, the focus during the weekly Lord’s Supper was overwhelmingly
on Friday’s cross and on our sins – indeed, I was told that during Communion I
was supposed to (quietly) “think and pray about how Jesus died for my sins.”
Even the songs in the Easter-themed section in our songbook, if you
looked closely, were almost entirely focused on Friday and on Jesus paying for
our sins. It felt like the Resurrection on Sunday was almost an
afterthought - we were supposed to be happy about it, but it didn't really
affect our theology or our lives because Jesus' death on the cross on Friday
was The Whole Point.
So I almost feel like I missed out on
the Resurrection for a few decades. But now I can’t stop talking about
it.
Maybe I’m just making up for lost
time. But I’ve also been reading several different authors (Willard,
Wright) over the past ten years, and getting glimpses of a slightly different
“big picture” than the one I learned growing up. For me it’s been as if
I’ve been gazing at a beautiful painting, and then a few helpful people pointed
out that the prescription of my glasses was outdated, and when I try on the new
lenses, I'm amazed as more things come into focus, colors are sharper and more
brilliant, and I can start to catch glimpses of depth and beauty that I didn’t know
was there before.
I’m still processing and
learning, so what follows is unfinished, but I feel a need to share.
Many define the Gospel (Good
News) as: Jesus came and died for your sins so that you can have eternal
life (which is defined as going to Heaven when you die.) There is a
familiar image used often to portray this: a gaping chasm with me on one side
and God on the other, because my sin has separated me from God, and only Christ
on the Cross can span that chasm by making a bridge from me to God by “paying
for my sins” (taking my punishment).
But then one author pointed out
that Jesus’ actual definition of Gospel (Good News) was “Turn your heart around
– the Kingdom of God is at hand!” (As in, the Kingdom of God is
something available to you starting now, not just when you
die). And then Jesus defined eternal life as Knowing God. (As in,
undying life starts now when we know
God.) And he kept painting picture after picture of what it looks like
for someone to pledge allegiance to God’s new Kingdom – Jesus taught so much
about the Kingdom of God, as if that was the point of everything. Jesus
prayed, “Your Kingdom come: may Your will be done on earth as it is in
Heaven.” God’s Kingdom has come where God’s will is already being done on
earth, as it is in Heaven.
I’m seeing a different picture of
Jesus now. Before, the big picture had been that Jesus came to die and
pay for my sins so I could go to Heaven when I die. But now, the big
picture I see is that Jesus came to show us what our loving Creator God is
really like, and to inaugurate God’s Kingdom on earth.
That big picture somehow seems…
bigger.
Jesus’ invitation into a New Kingdom
was an extremely offensive message to the ruling kingdoms of his day, and they
killed him for it. And we see God's unfailing love for us in Jesus'
willingness to die. But on the third day, God raised Jesus from the dead,
remaking his body, conquering the enemy Death (and sin and Satan) and
inaugurated God’s Kingdom on earth. The Resurrection was the shocking
sign that God has won and that death cannot stop Life.
We live “between the times;” God’s
Kingdom has already broken in, though it isn’t fully here yet. Those who
have thrown themselves under the reign of a New King are practicing now
for the full arrival of God’s Kingdom (loving God and neighbor and working towards
the reconciliation of all things) – when he will bring Heaven down to earth and
remake them both as one. Jesus was the first to get a Resurrection body;
we fully expect that, after some “sleep,” we also will be raised from the dead
and given new bodies that will not decay or die.
We are wrestling with how we teach our
daughters about Jesus' death and Resurrection and enjoying exploring new
metaphors and different vocabulary than we grew up with - it's not about
chocolate and new dresses. And so we're
trying to learn to live as Resurrection people, working for the New Kingdom now, because the party
has already started!
Peace to you,
Rachel
This is such a great post. You have articulated a lot of what has frustrated me in churches where a big point is made about NOT observing any holidays of any sort. If we were really celebrating resurrection every Sunday, I would feel more ok with it. But too often we keep dwelling on Friday...but it's Sunday, and the Kingdom has broken through!
ReplyDelete